Since I became a widow I have learned quite a few things.
I have learned not to take the future for granted. The life I thought was ahead of me is now a distant memory/dream. There is very little of what we had planned that is still possible. In fact, there is very little of me left. Most days I don’t recognize myself.
I have learned that family is not always there for you. Those I was quite sure would be there always and forever turned their backs on me. I really don’t understand this as family is everything to me. I never saw it coming.
I have learned that people don’t know how to talk to you once you’ve lost someone. I asked a friend why she didn’t tell me about a big life event. Her answer was that she had no idea how to tell me and didn’t want to hurt me with her good news.
There’s no way to prepare for being the one left behind. I struggle to find the right way to get through each day. I have learned that the loneliness is crushing.
Nobody would believe this blog 